My Recent Discoveries

I discovered that no matter how enticing the thought of being with that person again is(the one you used to adore), in the end, it will always remain just a 'thought'. A thought that merely exists because you need to challenge your loyalty once in a while. It is there simply to give you the bitter taste as opposed to the sweets that you are currently enjoying. The note that plays out of tune to the music that you have been listening to, with a simple objective of making you frown now and then so that you'll appreciate the music better.

I discovered that when it came to a point where I will be made to choose between being with the man I used to love and the man I have learned to love, I will choose the latter. Thus, I will choose Lon instead of Noah (if I may borrow the characters of the movie/book 'The Notebook').

I discovered that the concept of second chances in love exist only in movies and books since faith gives you one chance to make it right and if you were not able to do so on the first instance then that opportunity has passed.

I discovered that I really do not make sense in most times and I knew this when I reflected on how I handle difficult situations like rainy days, misplaced and unreturned laundry items and troubleshooting computer issues (not so difficult for most people but if you look closer, you can tell a lot about people just by observing their reactions to supposed-simple issues).

I discovered that no matter what the status of my relationship with my parents or siblings is or how bad it will get sometimes, I will love them always.

I discovered that I can write as many hate-mails to God (and continue with my silly attempts of ignoring Him) but I will always come back running to Him in the end.

I discovered that I have been contradicting myself for the longest time when I criticized people who like putting things off (rescheduling items that are supposed to be completed within the day for tomorrow's agenda), as I have been unwittingly doing the same thing for years. Putting off graduate studies until 7 years have passed, putting off visiting Egypt while I was in Dubai/Bahrain (now it's even more expensive to go there since I am back home), Putting off buying a car (now I would have to save money again since I have wasted the money I initially saved) etc.

I discovered that my love for 'rock, wild and crazy' was a phase that I have outgrown without even knowing or trying. And I hope that, if my children in the future will go through the same phase, I will have enough patience and compassion to handle them.