Wake Up, Salome

Time to ask for John's head.

Muli

sasayaw muli. lilimutin ang minsang pagkalugmok. babangon sa panibagong himig. sisimulan ang pag-indak, ang paglaro ng mga paa sa sahig, ang pagikot ng katawan sa tunog ng orkestra. upang hingin ulit ang ulo ni juan.



































Note: You made a mistake domesticating me.

Water, Woman

In 2006, I wrote a poem that talked about my fear of getting into another relationship.

Any moment now
I'll be flinging myself to the very air you breathe.
Waterfall rushing.
Slicing through sheer granite.
Free.
Crippling boulders with continues gush,
of roaring thunder and harsh cuts.
Then after a while,
I fear,
I will enter that calm boring gorge,
That paves the boats for commerce and wedding vows.
Serviceable.
Forgeting I was a wild river once,
Decorated with wild lilies and daisies
And soon,
From that fat gorge
I will rove with placid abandon,
Towards the sea,
The sewage as my friend.
Such a sad state
Such a sad, sad state.

Final Goodbye

How do you pick up the pieces after all was said and done? How do you teach yourself to pick up those pointe shoes after leaving them neglected for so long? How do you teach yourself to dance like a madwoman again after desperately staying sane for 4 years? How do you dream again after a nightmare was introduced?

I have forgotten how.

I watched him pack his belongings while he was not looking. I watched him pile every inch of his memory in less than fifteen minutes. I listened to him whisper his heartless farewell to my dog. I held my breath for the last time, held back the tears but they escaped anyway. I stared blankly at the wall; anxiously waiting for him to finish, to change his mind, to suggest another chance at love.

But none came. He left me with nothing but a cold embrace, a kiss in the forehead and the harsh truth that he has stopped loving me. He left and the shadows came thereafter.

And I prayed again today, after a long time of silence. I prayed to God and begged Him to stay by my side until my wounds have healed. I dare not ask anything else.